“I would have despaired unless I had believed that I would see
the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living.
Wait for the Lord;
Be strong and let your heart take courage;
Yes, wait for the Lord.
I had a mammogram a couple of weeks ago. They called me back to do a more targeted mammogram and a sonogram this past Wednesday. Then we waited. Sure, I cried just thinking about the possible results. But then I chose to reject the “what if’s” and instead dwell on the goodness of God. I was finally able to say that no matter what the outcome was, I would praise God and believe that He was in control and able to carry me through. Peace then reigned in my heart.
I called the doctor’s office this morning and found out that I have fibrous cysts, but no cancer! Yeah!!!
God chose to answer my prayers with a negative test result this time. But what about next time? I don’t have to worry about that because I know, I hope (wait expectantly) for God to intervene in my heart and life no matter the outcome! I wait not anxiously, but in deep trust that God loves me and will use whatever circumstances that this world and Satan can throw my way for His glory and to develop within me a heart more like His. That is my prayer. I want a heart of compassion, love, grace, forgiveness, boldness, truth, and mercy. Without the hard times of life it would be impossible to develop these traits. So I choose praise in the midst and just ask God to mold me into a servant willing to walk with Him through it all. He has already promised me that He will be with me through everything.