I was so blessed last week to go to North Dakota and speak and minister to the homeschooling group there. I met some wonderful people, encouraged some, and was encouraged in return until…. Until I fell. I was hurrying back from a workshop with my arms full of computer and books, I skirted around the corner of a booth and my foot caught on the table skirt that was too long and had draped onto the floor. My foot slid out from under me and I should have gotten a 10 for the graceful swan dive I took across the concrete floor. Books and computer went sailing, I didn’t. I landed loudly and laid sprawled out across the floor. Two gentlemen were helping me up before I knew what hit. I assured all around that I would be find then limped shamefully back to my booth to relieve the sweet volunteers who were helping me out. If all things work together for my good according to God’s word, why did my heart cry, “But I don’t see the good!”
My fall might not have been a big deal except for the spinal surgery I had in December. While assuring everyone else that I would be just fine, I worried to myself if I really would be. I knew I faced days in bed getting over the weekend from the flight, hotel bed, and standing for hours on my feet, and now this! God’s word says that God causes all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose (Rom. 8:38). Where was the good in this? I wondered. I don’t see the Good, Lord!
I returned home to spend a week in bed and with plenty of time to consider the good in falling. I prayed. I read my Bible. I discussed this with my husband. I still can’t see the good in falling, but I know it’s there because God said so. What about you? Have you had a “fall” in your life. Some situation that you see no redeeming value in? Have you questioned God about the good in that situation only to feel that God is not listening? “For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face; now I know in part, but then I will know fully just as I also have been fully known (1 Cor. 13:12). I have to continue to trust and place my faith in the One who sees all, who knows all, and who loves me unconditionally.
Charles Spurgeon said, “When you can’t see God’s hand, trust His heart.” So, I may never know upon this earth what good my falling did. But I can know that my good God will work it to my good. You, too, can trust God with your ‘falls”. He is faithful and true.