It is definitely an In the Midst day! It is one of those days where just getting out of bed is a chore. The weather is cold, and my body does not like cold weather! I woke up at 5:00 in severe pain after spending hours earlier in the night fighting a stomachache from the medicines. Finally, I took more medicine at 6:30, and am again fighting a nauseous stomach. Yuck! But, my day will not be based on feelings (physical or emotional), but rather on God’s promises.
I am fused five levels in my lower back and both SI joints. Next month they will be fusing four more levels, taking out some sacral hooks that have been there for 20 years and doing a rotor rooter job on several levels. The recovery will be 18 months to two years. My tendency is to think that every day forward will be like today. Despair can quickly creep into my heart. I can get into a pattern of thinking and praying, “God, I can’t do this everyday for the rest of my life or for 20 more years or for another week!” But, God is faithful and true. He only promises us the moment. He is Lord of the future as well as the past and the present and I will choose to live in the moment. He reminds me of Matthew 6:34 “So do not worry about tomorrow; for tomorrow will care for itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.”
God told Moses that His name is, “I am”. That is in the present. Not “I was”, or “I will be”. He is enough now in the present and I will praise Him for every breath, for every step, and for every opportunity to serve my family and Him.Choose with me today to look to Him for all comfort, to praise Him with all your heart, and to live to find joy in each moment. I will choose to praise God that I can still walk and hold my grandbabies and do so much.
Rowan Cade Halydier is 10 months old and is such a joy! He is curious, engaging, and cuddly.